... your law is within my heart.

"If the Lord delights in a man's way, he makes his steps firm; though he stumble, he will not fall, for the Lord upholds him with his hand." Psalm 37:23

Sometimes temptation plays the role of needs... and sometimes it's hard to say no to something you think you need. It's only when you say no that you realize you never really needed that which tempted you in the first place. It's an awful feeling, being self controlled when you don't want to be... but it's an even worse feeling after you given in to your lack of discipline. I wonder how long can I hold on and what will it be like when I do. I know in my heart that God never allows a temptation into your life that you cannot bear and that he always provides a way out, I also know that the more I fight my temptations the more I enter a full blown battle. On one hand God allows me to be free of those things that haunt me and on the other hand I find myself repeatedly taunting myself with their misery. I pray He gives me peace.