No More

"I do not want the peace that passeth understanding. I want the understanding which bringeth peace." - Helen Keller

I'm about to vent. Hopefully it's not taken the wrong way or is found offensive but isn't it funny how one day can change everything? Referring to the blog I had written yesterday... my assumptions and concerns were validated as of this past Sunday. I dreamt of it all weekend, waking up in cold sweats all Sunday night I found myself knowing all along. I'm too intuitive for my own damn good. I wanted to believe that "consideration" for me would control the situation but obviously loneliness and boredom took it a new direction. How did I know? I guess it was just that I always saw it coming, how sad is that? There are worse things yes, but for me... you might as well have torn my heart out of my chest and lit it on fire. What to do? What to think? Those questions are lingering but overcome by my feelings of anger, mistrust, and disappointment.

I'm getting over it and moving forward.
We all have control over our own destiny, our own emotions, and what we choose to do in response to pain. I choose to find joy and continue to be happy for my life and those in it. God gives me peace in all things.

Thanks be to God.
Love Natalie