Something strange about me--> I HATE the sound of a person scrapping the sides of a yogurt container for every last bit of the yogurt that is attached and clinging to the inside of the plastic, HOWEVER I myself, do this exact same thing even though I HATE it so much. LOL. Wheww... glad I got that out. I was feeling so guilty just now as I was eating my yogurt. Haha.
I have a headache and it's been around since yesterday. Yesterday was a "sad" day for me, it was one of those days where I thought too much about life and I was just plain down. I have no clue why... just was. Sometimes I think I'm just too intuitive and my over analysis and paranoia is actually because I know what's happening behind closed doors when most people don't. I've always been a very observant person when it comes to human nature and mannerisms. I've always been observant of words and actions and have always searched for the inadvertent meaning behind such things.
Kinda sucks actually because I understand people far better then they imagine I do. (and I'm not trying to sound pompous). Why do you think I've chosen to be Psychologist?! I think my trouble is separating myself from what others think, do, or feel. I seem to feel like I can change things, like I am to blame, or that if I was better then things would be better. But that's a lie I tell myself and I'm going to stop.
People do as they feel fit to do and there is no one that can change them but themselves. I've known this for a long time... maybe in some strange way I just think I can make a difference. I don't want to feel useless... I guess the challenge is figuring out how to be useful :o)
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