Falling Asleep

Being alone sucks. I mean, being alone from time to time is really actually rewarding in some ways. It's good to have some peaceful time to yourself, to relax, to be quiet, etc. But for the most part I'm completely sure that people are not meant to live alone forever. I think maybe it's more about being lonely then being alone. I change what I said, being lonely sucks! LOL. I hate not having my best friend to hangout with all the time, to cuddle up next to, to tell everything, to feel safe around, and to feel loved by. It's not the end of the world of course, but it does make me think a lot. Way too much to be honest. I've noticed that people who are lonely end up doing drastic things just to feel like they aren't alone. Personally, I have to keep doing things with my time so that I'm not alone with my "way too philosophical and melancholy thoughts". Last night I stayed up till 3am, wasn't even tired at all. Just couldn't sleep. I sat on my computer listening to music while also watching a movie. I don't even remember falling asleep but somehow I did, thank God. Sometimes I feel bipolar haha! One minute things are great and I'm feeling really in control of my happiness and the next moment I'm questioning everything and sad for no apparent reason. It's just the way life is I believe, one minute we think we have it all figured out and the next we are sorely mistaken. Lol. I'm okay with that though, as long as I know somewhere out there is what I'm looking for. As for right now, I can barely keep my eyes open. I am exhausted and need to stop expecting...